In reflecting on the loss of his wife, C. S. Lewis considered which was worse: ceasing to believe in God or believing bad things about him.  His conclusion:

Not that I am (I think) in much danger of ceasing to believe in God. The real danger is of coming to believe such dreadful things about Him. The conclusion I dread is not ‘So there’s no God after all,’ but ‘So this is what God’s really like. Deceive yourself no longer.¹

Lewis isn’t alone with the tension between a good God and harsh things happening in life.  It’s easy to let your heart grow hard when things go bad.  Here’s a song (with a nice video) to consider that comes from a songwriter who has experienced hard times himself.

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¹ Lewis’s A Grief Observed is a must-read.  It’s terse, honest, and hopeful.  I read parts of it with my students each fall when we discuss the problem of evil.