Jamie Smith, author of You Are What You Love, started his summer vacation with a brief reflection on the books that have been piling up in his office . . . and life. The post, which you can read here, ends with a nice picture of the role of books in this lifetime (and perhaps in the next):
A young man builds his library in hope. Each paperback treasure is acquired as an act of aspiration. A library is an image of the man he hopes to be: the canon he constructs is a standard of what he thinks he ought to know. It grows quickly, in unexpected ways, exceeding his attention. But there will always be more time to read, right?
A middle-aged man tends his library with a more sombre aspect. Reshelving a book unfinished is one more failure, a door one closes perhaps never to return. When I put The Noise of Time back on the shelf, I recall all the places Barnes has accompanied me on this adventure. But I see some of his novels still unread and wonder if I’ll ever get back to this corner of the library. In fact, it was Barnes who gave me a word for this: le réveil mortel—the wake-up call of mortality. Who knew tidying your library could be such an existential risk?
At some point you realize: I will die with books unread on my shelf. So be it. The grass withers, the flowers fade, the pages become mildewed and musty. So too will I. Even those unread books are a sign of aspiration, ambition, hope. I’ll die reading. I trust there are libraries in the kingdom.





I actually came to the old man realization in eighth grade. I wanted to read a million books and Grace said, “Does a person even live a million days?” It’s a sad realization. Books will go unread. Movies will be unseen. Great meals will be untasted. There’s too much beauty here, and people look forward to heaven? I don’t get it!